And that year went on and off. I loved her dearly, and literally gave her everything I had when I had nothing myself. I had no job and only what I was receiving from the VA for income, which after paying bills, didn't leave much room for having a life. Needless to say, that year was Guy receives first blow job lot of love and even more yelling. I was so upset because I only wanted to be acknowledged for my efforts to keep her happy, but I was only told about what I had done that didn't.